Darren help me, I still don’t know what I’m doing.

"What are you trying to tell me Blaine?"

Devin was sitting on his bed waiting for his friend to spit out what he had been trying to say for the past thirty minutes. Blaine had been crying and he was finally calm enough to speak but he wasn’t explaining. Devin needed to know what was wrong so he could help him.

Blaine hesitated. What he had to tell Devin was not something easy. It was life changing and Blaine was thankful that Cooper had been around to walk him through it all but it was about time he involved Devin. “Dev…I…you’re my best friend and this isn’t going to be easy bu-” the words didn’t seem to form on his mouth so he broke into a bit of a tear fest again. He hadn’t stopped crying for days now but this had been going on for weeks. It was the confirmation that his life was now ruined and over that sent him over the edge.  

"Blaine. Stop it. Spit it out." Devin didn’t understand what was going on. He had come home and found Blaine crying in his apartment. He hadn’t seen him like this since Kurt had left him and moved to California. That had been eight months ago and yet Blaine was here again bawling his eyes out.

Blaine stood there and stared at his friend. It wasn’t working. He should have brought Coop with him, Cooper could have told Devin. No. This was his battle to fight and Blaine was going to have to be brave through this. Courage. Just that thought had him in tears again. It was back in high school when he had been at Dalton that he had sent that word to Kurt. Where was Kurt now? If Kurt was here he wouldn’t be in this mess.

"Blaine, come on, talk to me," Devin’s voice sounded again before the silence lingered some more. You could hear a pin drop but Devin didn’t have one so the silence was all they had. Suddenly Blaine took in a sharp breath and said what he needed to.

"I’m HIV positive." 

HIV. How? What? Why? The questions flew through Devin’s mind and he just stared at Blaine as if this was some sort of nightmare. His friend had a disease that had killed many and continued to kill many. Yes, the drugs had certainly gotten better but this would no doubt change Blaine’s life forever. But this wasn’t like Blaine. How could something like this happen?

"I got drunk, I missed Kurt and there was a guy…and I…I wasn’t thinking," Blaine started to cry once again. It was awful that this was all part of a stupid mistake. He would never see the guy again and now he had a disease from him. "I’m scared Dev," 

"So am I."

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